Thursday, July 06, 2006

Neglect


Yes, Internet I’ve been neglecting you. My apologies, I’d have to say it’s the word of the week; Neglect. DS was home from Friday through Tuesday and instead of feeling like we got all this stuff done, I felt a lot like I had one more kid to pick up after. I have lots of examples, but because of time I guess let’s just say, I’m feeling very neglected. We had a really busy weekend and we’re going to a family reunion (his family) next week so this week has been hectic to say the least. Because of it, even my griping tonight is going to be super quick. Bah! So next week don’t expect much either. Sorry. If I can find an internet cafĂ© there’s a decent change I may be able to post, but that would mean all the stars, planets, earth, sun & moon would have to be aligned, and you know how that usually goes.

I think my mom might be right about the PPD, I've been a bit of a basket case the last couple weeks. I guess we’ll see how I’m feeling about it after next week. If I do have it, a week in a hotel room with my outlaws will definitely put me over the edge; Happy, happy, joy, joy for everyone. Either way should make for some good blog fodder, right? It's all about the blog fodder.

Just to hold you over, here’s some gratuitous kid pix. I’ll try to post before we leave again, but don’t hold your breath. I’d offer to hide you in my suitcase, but with a toddler & baby in tow, I’m not sure how well we’re going to do packing-wise as it is, so maybe you can go with us next time. I’ll miss you & I’ll do my best to keep in touch.

Yes, yes, I know my children are beautiful, but feel free to tell me again. ;-) (hee, hee)


Monday, June 26, 2006

Craptastic!!!

When I was originally going to write this post (Last Thursday when I took this pix) I was going to tell you how “crappy” the day had been, and yes it was all related to the poop in my life. However things have since improved, so why dwell? I could not pass the opportunity to share this lovely photo of BS with you though.

Yes, I will be using this photo to scare off future potential boyfriends. She did this during dinner no less!!! And let me tell you, this is nothing, you should've seen her backside. Well, maybe it was better that you didn't.

TS has gone 3 days w/out defiling her pants. Wahoo!!! (And knock on wood.) We’ve taking the tact of taking away a toy if she does it AND rewarding w/either a piece of candy or a Madeline cookie (not just any cookie, it has to be a Madeline) when she uses the toilet. (To go #2, #1 isn’t really a problem.) This also means no cookies or candy other then those times. She lost 3 of her favorite toys before this weekend, but in the last 3 days has earned them all back!!! I am also trying to make a point of asking her to help me with everything on do and make her feel included.

BS is still having crazy huge diapers about once a day, but the reflux seems to be better. Sort of. I’m not convinced it is reflux and that’s why I haven’t given her the meds for it. I see her dr for her 2 month appointment (I know, can you believe it’s been TWO MONTHS already???) on Friday so I’ll talk to him more about it then. I believe the rice cereal in a bottle once a day and keeping her upright after eating is really making a huge difference; no projectile vomiting (ok, minimal projectile vomiting) and it seems like the “fussiness” is all related to lower intestinal stuff, which would not be reflux.

Ok, more later, timer just went off need to go get dog food & water neighbor’s plants!

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

Summertime Blues

I guess I don't need to post to my blog today, I'll just direct everyone to Antique Mommy's. It's so my life right now.

Now add a 2 month old who has reflux (or just severe gas or something, who knows, she not happy a lot of the time) but she is sleeping 6-8 hours a night, so I'm not really complaining. And the dr gave us reflux drugs, so we'll see. I haven't started them with her yet, but that's fodder for another post.

I was thinking maybe I was having a touch of PPD (post partum depression) because I just have no patience for TS these days. And it's so not like me. I mean I'm bitchy to everyone else in my life, but I used to be consistantly nice to my kid. (But then she used to be consistantly nice to me.) I feel so bad about it. It’s summer we get to hang together all summer, we should be having fun! But it’s not fun, at least a lot of the time it’s not. It’s a lot of work and frustration for both of us. And the more I realize that the more bummed out about it I get.

Antique Mommy's post did make me realize that it probably isn't PPD or even just hormones, it's probably just us. Both of us frustrated by our current state of life, taking it out on each other. Needing each other and not wanting to all at the same time. Sigh.

Friday, June 16, 2006

Daddy’s Day

This one is sneaking up on me a little. I’m getting better at the two kids thing (just by saying that I’m sure I just jinxed my day) but adding anything like say a holiday throws me a bit. So I’m scrambling a bit today for Daddy’s Day presents. It’s not entirely my fault I knew what I wanted to do and said it in front of DS (I was talk about for the Grandpa’s at the time) and got shot down. Ack! So did I come up with something new? No, I went into denial and now I’m scrambling. I think I know what we’re doing, but it means going to the store (possibly multiple stores) with both kids in tow. Not fun. Oh well, it’s supposed to be HOT today (finally!) so I can bribe the use of the kiddie pool for good behavior.

DS is a great dad BTW. A Daddy’s Day posting wouldn’t really be complete without a mention of that fact. I think there are people who are surprised at what a good father he is, but I’m not. He’s become the dad I knew he would be when I married him. TS has become quite the daddy’s girl as of late and it’s really sweet to see her run to him in the evenings when he comes home from work.


Happy Daddy’s Day DS!!! We love you!

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

My Inner Nine Year Old Boy is Working Overtime

REFUX

Go ahead, say it out loud. Didn’t you giggle? Just a little? It’s how my 3YO pronounces reflux. Yesterday, I decided that maybe the projectile spitting up vomiting, (I’ve been informed that when the spit projects it’s consider vomit. Oookay.) and the congestion that BS seems to get while nursing might be indicative of something. (I considered that the projectile poop might also indicate something, but have since been informed that “projectile poop is normal.” Of course it is.) I was thinking maybe a food allergy? So I decided that maybe I should cut the obvious culprits from my diet for a week or so and see if it makes a difference. Obvious culprits would be dairy, chocolate & caffeine. Dairy & chocolate would be my worst offenses; I’ve already been avoiding beans, broccoli, cauliflower & cabbage and I don’t do much caffeine on it’s own. Since not having my Vente Decaf Mocha every morning AND evening will just about kill me I decided to call the advise nurse and see if it made more sense to do one item at a time (and can I substitute soy, which is highly allergic on it’s own, for milk? I can use soymilk and prolong the loss of my mochas for a week or two until I have to lose chocolate.) Or would it be better to do it all at once & add them back one at a time. She called me back, asked a bunch of questions and then informed me I should be bringing BS in to see the doctor, how was 12:15 for me? It was currently 11:45, I love how they make you feel like mother of the year over this stuff.

So after much poking, prodding and questioning the doctor gave us a sample swap to swipe BS’s poop onto 3x in the next week to see if there is an indication of any allergies. She didn’t think so, but “to cover our bases.” She also gave me a list of things I need to do with BS to try and limit the spitting up; adding rice cereal to a once-a-day breast milk bottle, avoiding formula (we hadn’t used it in over a week, so not an issue,) and then mostly ways to keep her upright. Depending on her (lack of) improvement we’ll know better if they want to try medication with her or not next week. In addition to all of this poor BS has a herniated umbilical cord. I noticed it the other night & mentioned it to the doctor. She checked it out and said it would heal itself & didn’t hurt her. I’m not convinced about the hurting part. The thing sticks strait out when she’s crying, it looks like it hurts. Have you ever seen a belly button stand up? That's what it does. Ouch!

In spite of all of this BS is up to 8# 4oz (Wahoo!) Considering that she’s sleeping 6-8 hours a night consistently and spitting up half of what she’s taking in, I think I can let the kid tell me how often she wants to eat now. Like it’s ok if she wants to go longer then 3 hours during the day.

Back to my inner nine year old boy; I find it humorous that yesterday, my poop posting day, was one of the highest trafficked days of my blog. Guess I know what I need to talk about if I want more visitor, huh?

Monday, June 12, 2006

It’s Bodily Function Day!

Yes, that’s right it’s bodily function day at the house O’Speak. If you’re squeamish you should turn back now. I think it really says a lot about me that I’ve gone 6 weeks without a post about baby poop. Isn’t that usually the primary fodder for bloggers with new baby’s?


ToddlerSpeak

TS has been more or less potty trained for several months now. She does still wear pull ups when she sleeps. I decided not to mess with the current arrangement until well after BS was born. I figured the move, BS’s birth, etc… was a lot to ask, so why push it. Well, TS has given me the reason; she’s been waiting till she has the pull up on and then pooping in it. This really hit a new low now that she’s decided to take it off (full of poop) and “clean herself”.

Very special.

The other highlight that’s been happening with TS is that she has decided to start peeing herself during the day. For attention. No pull up involved, just regular clothes. She’ll have just gone in the potty 10 mins before and then suddenly announce she’s going. When she did this for the 3rd time the other day I asked her, “Why did you do that?” And she said, “Because you have to clean it up.” I may have to kill her. Guess who's cleaning up now? Instead of death I settled on losing the pull ups altogether. So yesterday and today she wakes up dry—Wahoo! And promptly pees & poops (Saturday) in her PJs while standing on the bed. Lovely.

Babyspeak

BS has become what you (or at least my parents) would call a “spity baby”. Every time she eats she spits up. Not just a small teaspoon amount either. This kid can heave. It has now progressed to where she projectiles at least once a day. Usually the “jet vomit’ occurs within the first hour after she eats first thing in the AM. She’ll have eaten, burped (she makes her mama proud on this front too) and spits up like normal so you’ll think you’re clear. Then you put her down in her crib and about half an hour to an hour later she’s crying. You go in there & there’s a trail across the crib. I have a mat underneath her, so hopefully if her diaper overflows or she spits up I’ll only have to change the mat not the whole crib. Yeah, right. This kid often manages to miss the mat altogether. She’s kind of amazing when you think about it (and so is the amount of laundry I’m doing these days). Or she’ll have done the trail and when you pick her up, it’s underneath her, down her back, etc…Very impressive. Honestly, it's hard to believe a child her size can put out that much. She also manages to pack some force with her poop. Luckily the worst we’ve gotten on that front is up the back, which is gross, but no where near as gross as it would’ve been if I hadn’t been holding up a wipe when changing her diaper the other day and the “projectile poop” started shooting out.

There’s your visual for Monday.

Thursday, June 08, 2006

EIGHT HOURS!!!


Yes, I said EIGHT HOURS, the child slept for eight strait hours last night. I, on the other hand, did not sleep for 8 strait hours. I had to stay up till midnight to pump (she fell asleep at 10 after nursing). Then at 4 AM the cat, realizing we might actually be getting a full night of sleep, decides to have a hairball on the end of our bed!!! GA-ROSS! I woke up before she really got going & kicked her ass across the room off the bed. But now I was awake and had to clean it up. Never-the-less I did get in a “decent” night’s sleep last night.

Today is 6 weeks! Can you believe it’s been six weeks already???? I think her weight is about 7# 9 oz by now. Cool. At six weeks I feel like I should so have may shit more together then this. But I don’t.

I was able to get out of the house today in 2 hours (including 2 time outs for TS) and everyone had clothes on and hair brushed. Yes, I even had on my makeup. So maybe I am getting my shit more together then I think. Or maybe getting some actual sleep makes a difference.

On a non-related side note; a friend of the family (someone DS grew up with) have been dealing with an unbelievable tragedy. Their 6 YO daughter fell 2 stories in an elevator shaft last week. She survived, and in fact is making incredible progress. You can read about it here if you’re interested. If you’re the praying type, would you mind including them in your prayers this week? As a mom the whole thing makes me sick to my stomach, and since we live far away, asking you to help pray for them is about the most productive thing we can offer them right now.

Ok, more later. I’m off to nurse some more. MOO!!!

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

Who’s the Queen Now?


I’ve always said I’m the “Queen of Everything”, which makes TS “The Princess of Quite A lot”. But after these I’m not sure who’s the Queen around here. Hee, hee.








Sunday, June 04, 2006

This Week(end) has been hard

TS is acting out and having melt downs in ways I can’t begin to describe. It doesn’t seem related to BS, but who knows. I guess we just have to get way more “hard ass” with her over everything, stop giving her so many choices, and consistently make the choices things like, “You can do this or I can do it for you. Now.” It’s hard, I'm still sleep deprived and trying to keep my head above water when things are “normal” and then she pulls the crap she’s been pulling and it’s like I don’t even know how to describe how I'm feeling. My frustration level is through the roof.

I told DS that I think she needs to start going to school 3 days a week. I told him this on Wed & things have been worse since then.

He laughed at me.

I wasn't joking.

I do know that I need to get back on my little flylady system. I started the process of it again this weekend. I’m so frustrated that getting out the door in the morning is taking 3.5-4 hours!!! (This includes feeding BS, usually 2x because by the time I get out stuff together to go she's due to eat again.) I realized that my morning routine needs to be revamped; it just isn’t working for me with two kids. I pulled my timer out and started timing how long it’s taking me to do each task so I can set a realistic routine and allocate some of the tasks to other parts of the day. Hopefully, this will help me get some sanity back (and maybe even more sleep.) So I’d better go now, since my time on the computer is up, more later.

Friday, June 02, 2006

Blogger is Pissing me off


Ok, I wrote how Blogger was pissing me off. I couldn't get a photo to load on that last post to save my life.

However on a whim I thought I'd give it a try on a new post & volia. Go Figure.

So this is NOT the pix I was trying to load. This is a pix of TS giving BS "nosey kisses" something she likes to do often.




This is the photo I was trying to upload. It's kinda dorky, but it's BS's first "smile" (probably gas, but I'll take it where I can get it, right?)

I'm hoping I might even get a birth story up for you this weekend (don't hold your breath). Ok, I'm off to bed, I'm exhaused.

Thursday, June 01, 2006

One Month

(I have some pix I'm trying to upload for this, but Blogger is not playing nice tonight.) Keep checking I'll get them added. Honest.)

Well it was one month on Saturday, May 27, but life was happening & I couldn’t seem to get to the computer for any length of time until now. I did manage to get on long enough to find a bargain on a stroller frame ($25!!! Wahoo!!! Craig’s List Rocks!!!) which DS & I picked up tonight.

I’m so cool.

On the non-kid front, outlaws left today (a large part of the reason I couldn’t get on here for any length of time; I was competing w/DS & FIL for computer time in the short bursts of free time I did have, so next to impossible.) Also, my mom is having some major health problems. I think it’s something that can be managed in way that it will hardly make a dent in her life (assuming she gets very proactive about it right away). But I may be naive in my thinking, and that’s assuming she’s on board to kick it in the butt right off. That’s a big assumption; it’s more likely that if she were committed to changing her life that dramatically she probably would’ve done it already. She’s very upset about it right now, so it may be something she’s willing to take on now. I hope so, she needs to be around for a long while. Who else can drive me nuts quite like her?

As usual, if it’s not one thing, it’s another. I have lots more to write about, but I’m going to give BS a paragraph & get to bed. I’m still exhausted most of the time.

So now, back to BS, who this post is actually supposed to be about; as with most second children she’s obviously getting less attention then the first. I’m talking about my blog postings. The kid wants to eat every two hours so she’s getting plenty of actual attention. I do believe that rather then calling me “mom” she will be referring to me as “lunch”. As in, “Hello Lunch. I missed you today.”

Overall things are going very well; she’s up to 7# 4oz (Wahoo!!!) which is exactly how much they want her to have gained. Her weight & height are both in the 5% so she’s a small baby. Note: this does not equal small quantities of diaper changing or contents. We’ve even had a couple nights involving 6 hours of sleep (More “Wahoos!!!”) Dr has given us the ok to let her sleep like that at night (assuming she’s eating at least every 3 hours during the day.) We’ve been setting the alarm to make sure she eats every 3 hours, even if she doesn’t wake us for it. She does seem to get “colic” most nights (usually between 8-midnight). All pray to the Mighty Vibrator Chair Gods is all I can say on that one. And she is starting to be awake for a couple hours here & there during the day, even getting some cooing & smiles.

This is the good part.

Friday, May 26, 2006

Happy Anniversary!

It’s FIVE years today! So much has happened in that time I can’t believe we’ve only been married for five years. I had hoped to write something really eloquent about how great our marriage is, how much I love DS and how lucky I am in general, but it wasn’t meant to be I guess. The outlaws arrived today. We also celebrated TS’s b-day with the whole family tonight, so as predicted when she was born, we no longer have an anniversary, we have a child’s birthday. We decided a while back ago to start celebrating our anniversary on our engagement, although we are going out for a nice dinner tomorrow night. That being said, this is about as eloquent as I could get, (yes, I know it’s cheesy, but it’s all I got right now) and I’m barely even making it on here before midnight. So I should just be pleased I’m getting this up, right? Definitely gives you an idea of the state of our lives right this second.

Happy Anniversary DS, ILOVEYOU!!! Here’s to many, many more years of being at least as happy as we are right now. Thank you so much for all the happiness and love you’ve given me.

(If you want to see our wedding album it's still on the photographer's website. We clean up real good & it’s a very cool album if I do say so myself, but I'm a little biased. Yes, he's wearing a kilt--it's in the family tartan. We're cool like that.)

5 years of being happily married
4 pets
3 homes
2 kids
1 TRUE LOVE

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

Happy B-day Miss TS.


I think back to this day three years ago and I’m amazed at the person you’ve become. You are such a beautiful person inside and out; you’re smart and funny and have great empathy for everyone around you. I’m excited to watch you continue to grow and amaze me. I’m also sad when I think back to how fast the last 3 years have gone already. You’re no longer a baby or even a toddler, you’re a little girl, you would correct me and say BIG, but work with me here, I’m your mommy and as I tell you daily; “you’ll always be my baby.”

When TS was born I wrote down her birth story & scrapbooked a page in her scrapbook. (I crop in my free time; I just haven’t had any in the last 6 months or so. HA, HA, HA, HA, HA, HA, HA!) So in honor of her on her 3rd birthday I did a version of that here.

A Family is Born

I had a relatively easy pregnancy with TS. No morning sickness (although I some sinus issues that made up for that,) I actually slept better then usual, my skin was radiant, and I generally felt really good. During my pregnancy I attended pre-natal yoga twice a week. I attribute the yoga to all my good and restful feelings and I recommend it highly. I also attribute it to the hernia I acquired in the sixth month. I didn’t really realize what I’d done until the seventh month when TS “dropped” and put her head on the hernia—very uncomfortable to say the least. By the time I was nearing my due date the weight of the baby on that spot was really starting to wear me down. At 37 weeks Dr. B said TS was healthy and ready to go, so there was no reason to be that uncomfortable any longer, I could induce when ever I was ready! We scheduled the induction for May 24 starting at 6:00 AM. We were so excited our little princess was finally going to arrive. Once we had that date we suddenly found tons of things that needed to be done around the house. It was a very busy week. May 23rd we stayed up late getting ready. We figured we wouldn’t get much sleep anyway. As we were getting ready for bed I told DS how glad I was we were inducing because the baby suddenly felt a lot heavier and like I was carrying her differently. I finally fell asleep sometime after midnight. Then at 2:30 AM I woke up with a start, before I knew it my water suddenly broke! (Our little princess was actually a Drama Queen, she wasn’t being told when to make an entrance—she was calling the shots.) We called the doctor who told us to head to the hospital, she’d let them know we’d be early. As we were driving to the hospital (about 10 minutes away) we passed a fast-food drive-thru that was very busy. I commented to DS, “You know people are just heading home right now.” It seemed so surreal, that was us just a year ago. We got to the hospital and settled in. We didn’t call anyone since they were planning on coming to the hospital later anyway. While contractions didn’t really hurt they were getting intense and at 4 minutes apart would definitely be keeping me awake. It was at this point I asked the nurse if they could give me something so I could sleep through the contractions. I wanted to try and get some rest before everyone showed up. They gave me fentiol which just made me sleepy and slowed down the contractions to every 7 minutes. But they were just as intense! I’d start to doze off and then wake up every 7 minutes and glare at DS who had crashed completely in the recliner. (So Rude!) At 8:00 AM they agreed to give me an epidural so I could sleep. I was scheduled to start pitocin at that time and they expected things to get much more intense. I was only 2 cm at that point but I told DS “I’m not dying or anything yet, but if this is only 2 cm, this sucks!”

Oh heaven, no pain at all.
And I could still feel my legs!

I took cat-naps as various people came by to visit. By noon I was at 5 cm and they told us it would probably be another 5-6 hours. Then a couple hours later they came to check me and I was 10 cm already! The nurse called the doctor and told me to push to get things started. I did, and apparently I did so well she called the doctor again and told her to come strait over now! I pushed some more. DS and my mom helped me by holding my legs, and SIL videotaped. I had a mirror so I could see the baby coming out. I was very concerned about the epidural preventing me from pushing well and therefore having to be turned off or down. I figured being able to see what was going on would be me focus and stay motivated. Watching the baby in the mirror was actually very distracting; I’d start watching and forget to push as hard. But it worked out fine. I’ve had harder work outs (of course, I’ve never been hooked up to pain killers during a work out.)

At 4:50 PM ToddlerSpeak was born.

And so was our family.

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

Kicking my Butt

Quite literally. This back pain thing is really on my backside, in my hip and it’s killing me. I should’ve bought stock in the company that owns Tylenol. Seriously. It’s the main reason I haven’t gotten back into my regular blogging (or cleaning or anything else for that matter.) The worst is the stairs, which I have to go up to get to my computer. Second worst is if I’m walking and carrying something heavy—like say a child. It scares me a little because I’m afraid I’m going to either lock up completely or my leg will collapse out from under me. Yes, that’s how bad it is. I can’t get into my physical therapist again until June 1. BAH!

Outlaws are showing up again. Actually, I’ve had lots to report over this trip, but just no bandwidth to write it. There was much drama over this visit; they were ignoring my request for a month without overnight visitors and had intended to show up on the 18th. DS and I went back & forth on it, but he did push back with them & they did agree to this week. There’s much more to it, but I’ve got 2 minutes (maybe) before TS gets out of bed & comes in here, so that’s all you’re getting on it for now. Plus I know I’ll be back online sometime today (tonight) as I just realized that I need to send out an evite for TS’s b-day party (we’re having on June 3rd) because I don’t have my shite together & it’s now too late to send out the invites we bought. (Don’t tell her, cause I did manage to get to a party store last week with her & let them pick them out—Cinderella, of course.) Her b-day is tomorrow. I’ll see if I can’t pull up her birth story & post that then. No pix right now as she’s opening the door to her room. More soon, I promise.

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

And the Insanity Continues….


Here’s the thing. I’m starting to feel like I’m getting a groove, but then I realize it’s just because I’m actually getting a little sleep at night now. It still takes me over 3 hours to get TS, BS & myself out the door. And usually that means I didn’t bathe them or I forgot to put my make up on or something. So I feel like I’m doing better, but then I get out the door & look in the rear view realizing I’ve got like the splotchiest face on earth. Reality Check. Sigh

BTW, BS is eating and gaining weight like a champ now. She’s also started being “gassy” in the evenings & all night the other night. I can deal with that stuff a little better. Not life threatening, just healthy lungs.

In case you were wondering, my mom’s day was not stellar. Just as we were putting everything on the table TS had a mach 10 meltdown. As this progressed BS ended up needing to eat, (I had planned the day so we’d be finishing dinner and I could run upstairs and feed her w/out impacting everyone else. TS’s meltdown threw everything off kilter.So much for planning.) My mom & SIL ended putting everything together on the table. Nice. I guess it’s just part of being a mom.

And just to keep you up to date on what’s happening with me; I’m having some major back (pain) issues. It’s been getting progressively worse since labor and by yesterday I could hardly walk. I got into a physical therapist, who informed me that my tailbone is locked into my pelvic bone and being pulled forward. Yes, it’s uncomfortable (that’s an understatement.) She thinks probably the baby was on my right side which is now all stretched out and my left side was pulling everything forward to compensate for the weight & space of the baby. Now that baby is out, my ligaments & muscles are still pulling (everything is all loose & out of shape as you might guess) and have started pulling everything out of whack. I felt better yesterday after she worked on me, but it’s getting back out of whack again. I’m ok as long as I’m not moving. Minor detail.

Ok, there’s your update. Hopefully, I will start to actually get a groove and be able to start checking my email & posting on here more regularly. Plus you’ve got your promised pix. More to come, of course.

Saturday, May 13, 2006

Under Construction

Ok, I know I TOTALLY owe you photos & stories & such. And here I am changing my template without an update. I was just checking a couple things on other people’s sites (Bean’s Dad is now a dad for the 2nd time BTW) and I saw that Zoot had posted a bunch of free Blogger templates. She’s had these up for a while, but until now nothing had jumped out at me. This one is sooooo totally me! OHMYGAWD! I love her so much and I haven’t even met her. So you need to go and read her site and tell her how pretty she is and send her Krispy Kremes (if you’re feeling really generous).

So yeah, any time I should’ve spent writing to you has now been spent playing with this new temeplate (although remarkably easy so pretty much no time at all). The fact that it took no time all should also explain why my lazy ass is not getting rid of extraneous navigation right this second. (Tomorrow, my mantra these days.) Yes, what I do (for work) is web related. Why haven’t I done something like this for myself? Lazy, mostly. And I know I’ll put too much effort into it, so it'll take too much time from my actual blogging. My goal with this blog has been to stick with they content part & then later I may put some effort into the design (fun stuff). So when I find something I love and it’s free I’m totally jumping on it.

Quick update


Since I'm here I should at least give you an update.

Dr. appt went well. She was still her birth weight. I have (rented) a baby scale this weekend to see how much BS is getting each time she eats. The little piggy is taking in NO LESS then 2.5 oz each feeding! Dude! That is a TON for someone who only weighs 6 oz total. So we’ve nixed the supplement bottle at each feeding. DS has been taking the 3 AM feeding (WAHOO!) So I only have to get up to pump for 10 mins at that time. This means I am effectively getting a 5 hour stretch of sleep at night (more or less). Two nights in a row now, I'm a freaking new woman. I’m also only pumping one other time a day right now (trying to slow down my milk production but also avoid engorgement issues.) Apparently, I can feed the multitudes. BS takes 2.5 oz from me and I can still pump out another 4 oz—trust me this is an insane amount of milk. I’m not complaining, since we have it under control I can now say that I’d rather have this problem then too little milk. Ok, I’ll see if I can’t get DS to upload the pix tonight & then be able to write a post with more tomorrow or Monday.

Just call me Bessie. MOO!

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

Still Alive!

Hi Internet. Yeah, it’s me, remember me? I’m still alive. Sort of. TS has preschool tomorrow and while I have full day already planned out (got to get those errands done when I only have one child in tow) I PROMISE to fill you in on things again sometime tomorrow. So this is just a quick “Hi” to let you know we’re still here at the house of Speak. BS is back up to her birth weight as of yesterday! (That’s me dancing a little jig in the corner here. Now, that’s me passing out from exhaustion in the same corner.) We have a dr appt tomorrow; it’s 2 weeks already! I know, it’s flown by for you. I, however, have been awake, literally, for the majority of it. Doesn’t go by quite as fast when you’re awake for all of it. Anway, I’m sort of waiting to update you after to dr. appt. Ok, Miss you! I need to go feed the baby. I’ll TTYT! More pix tomorrow too, I promise!

Thursday, May 04, 2006

Good News & more Good News

Dr. appt went well today. BS was up to 5# 9 oz, I do NOT think she gained 9 oz over night. I think I got a bad scale the other day. However, I do think she may have been somewhat dehydrated and you could account for a more significant gain that way. Anyway, the dr was glad to hear what I’d been doing, and since she was gaining at this point we’ll go in for a reweigh tomorrow and next week. Whew!

I’m still exhausted, 3 hours between feedings is still no picnic, especially when you consider 20 mins on the boob, 10 mins pumping and usually 20 mins on the bottle, but its better then where we were. (Gawd, I did this for SIX WEEKS with TS! I was insane. How was I not having post partum depression that time?) Hopefully we’ll get her up to her birth weight by next week & I can stretch out her nights a little more then. I think it’s kicking my butt more this time because I can’t “sleep when the baby sleeps”, that whole having another kid thing. She’s just not up for hourly naps.

I have lots more to write, but going to keep is short (HA, HA) and head to bed. So the other good news today (and you’re going to think I’m totally vain, but who cares, you can think that,) I tried on a pair or pre-pregnancy jeans today AND THEY FIT! Got on the scale at the doctors today and I’ve lost the 10# already!!!! I know you’re like, jeez it’s only 10#, get over yourself beyoch. But when I had TS I never got back into my pre-pregnancy clothes and I had to wear maternity clothes for months after. Now, don’t get me wrong, I still have a tire like jelly round my middle. And I DREAD bathing suits this summer (Ok, I dread them pretty much every summer) but I can’t tell you what a difference something like zipping up your old jeans can do to your self esteem. Now to work on the 10 I never lost from TS.

Now. I Sleep.

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

Weight here version 2.0


Actually 3.0 because we went through something similar with TS. You'd think we're thin or something?

I haven't been neglecting you Internet. I'm just really busy. You see BS's weight is not good. I took her to the hospital (BFing clinic) & weighed her and she's down to 5# today. That's more then a 10% loss (they start putting them back into the hospital at 10% so I'm totally stressing.) She does eat like a piggy--every 2 hours. So the lactation consultant suggested adding an ounce to every other feeding tonight & reweighing in the AM. It's going to be a long night.

Lots of other things to bitch about (outlaws have started in again) but I'm too tired & need to pee before I go feed her again. She eats every two hours, but it takes 30-40 mins to get her filled up. I know not much. But I don't get much time to do things like pee and eat and sleep, so don't feel too put out. I did choose you overing going to the bathroom. (And I included another pix to hold you over.) More later I promise.

Monday, May 01, 2006

She’s Here!!!




Ok, she's been here, but I haven't had a chance to get on my computer.

Babyspeak arrived on Thursday, April 27 at 12:22 PM.

She weighed 6 lbs even, 19” long. And I think she’s beautiful.

Yes, she’s little (her premie diapers fall off of her). Apparently she had a short umbilical cord, which goes along w/low amniotic fluid, so it was a good decision to be induced.

TS has been handling it well.
I’ll have to write more later, I’m exhausted right now. (My milk’s in.)